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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Today, wake up at 6.30am pray then go back to sleep. never go to school because sick. got flu, running nose, head ache.... like that no mood going to school. its better for me.. relax at home.. in the afternoon do my 2 prayers then watch tv.. feeling a bit better.. then at night do my 2 prayers then play com.. nothing special or any adventures... i got no time for that..

Just time for relaxation.. hope that nothing will happen to me these few days since its exams weeeks.. i need to relx and get help for my subjects. at least i got 2 helpers. farhan, help me in coolin down,maths and mother tongue. mahed hlp me in english and cheerful a bit.. i needmore help..i need more help in my studies and get m emotions..

Hope i can get it soon before its too late... i need to try my best and make me feel alive..

Assalamualaikum,
'Aidah

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Sunday, April 26, 2009

today, nothing special.. wake up at 10am bath cook breakfast then go back to sleep.. even i never go to school on Friday, i can't cool down or stay calm. i don't know what to do now.. all the way stress i give up on everything that i have until i don't want to answer the telephone that anyone calls me... ahyo!!!! untili now take exam leave for the next three weeks.. for monday, tuesday, thursday,friday and sunday... i took too many leave but im cant take it im too stress and i cant relax...

sleep all day then wake up at 4.30pm watched tv.. never eat at all..
at 7.30pm, eat lontong... my mom think that i need a break so she buy for me lontong to eat.. one of my favourite food.. oh ya, in the afternoon, my grandpa bought for me my favourite chocolate, he thinks im too pale.. he never sees me like this.. i cant beleve that almost everyone in my house notice that...

at night, watched movie and talk on the phone with my abang.. hes just want me to calm down.. he knows everything that happen to me.. at least i got someone that cared for me..that cheers me up a little.. but that doesnt mean my mood is still in this world.. no more..! my mood cant come back...

thats all i want to say for today...

assalamualaikum,
'Aidah

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Friday, April 24, 2009

this was the picture of me at SGH....

very crowded

causeway point

ah... yesterday, i finished work at 11.3opm and the good news was that yestrday there's only one manager at night in charge and that was everla.. the manager that worked at khatib macdonald's but she was now offically transfer to chongpang.. very sad.. but she only attached here for only one day.. thats good that i can see her now very long already... three months.. wow!!!!

yesterday also very sad.. fang zhen alone doing lane one inside but i go inside help him until almost punch out.. he half way die inside there.. onlyone person do kitchen!!! cant believe it!!!

today, i wake up in the moning at 6.45 then i go bathed. veryfunny happened when i was bathing.. i bath then i felt like i want go to school a not.. i want go school a not..? then when i was bathing i but the shampoo at my body then i go RE-BATH!!! whh!!! make me so angry!!! then i wear the school uniform eat breakfast then left the house... it was about 7.10am then i think think... i mabok but want go to school.. i though of that at the bus stop then after ten minutes which is 7.20am.. i nr board the bus then i went home... when i went home, my mother said, why you come home? left something??? then i just walked away... very funny i never respect my mother just now... i put my bag in my room then iron my school uniform then i wear my pj back... then when i left the room and do hot milo.. my mother said why you never go to school then i repied i have nomood to goto school today.. im in a problem and i dont feel to settle it then i dont go to school lawl..then some more i mabok.. then my mother said anything lah you ni.. doanything that you want to..! in a problem in a problem la!!! dont want settle not my business..! then i just do nothing drank my milo then go back to sleep..

when i was sleeping, i cant sleepi felt soo stress of the class.. from what i experienced for this 2 years, i now give up. i give up helping and i give up being a 3 NT 8 student.. some more in the class,i have no one to count on..no one to help. no one to be on my side or be with me.. i'm the only one who was now offically left alone... i have no one to count on.. i have no one in school.. oh.. [Ya Allah, tolong aku.. aku tak boleh tahan... ini sudah susah kan hidup saya.. tolonglah aku.. la e la hah il alaha ( 3times) amin......]

at 9.30am, i woke up bath again then went to the SGH (singapore general hospital) with my abang because he sick got appointment then i go home then sleep suddenly very mabok then at 4.30pm wake up bath again!! walao!! mad bath 3 times already then go to causeway point totake my new handphone.. only can say sony brand.. then i waited in the queue like hell the no. over there is 63 but my no is 82.. wah!! want make me stress lawl... then when take my handphone i go home watch tv then go online while then go sleep!!!

some more before going to sleep want bath!!! i mad bathing and mad being mabok and stress!!!

ah!!! this is one of my worst day ever..! running away from problem and school!!! i just dont care!!!

from what i experienced this year i cant relax and calm down.. no one to be there with me and be with me.. i now just started to miss guides... i want to get my rank soon and to relax my life.. im still mabok and i still feel like not going to school on monday.. my life is not happy.. no one can cheer me up except for all the Wali, Nabi Muhammad and Allah.. i need them... right now..... i did a lot of bad deed sins my life. i now want to be good... to be a good girl.. i want to be good like Nabi Muhammad and all the Wali.. amin amin...

i will start being good from now on...

[Bismillahiromanirahim]

[alhamdurillahil..... amin]

assalamualaikum,

'AIDAH anak FAIZAH anak ZAINUDDIN anak AHMAD

'AIDAH anak SALLEH anak ABDULLAH

seterusnya cucu..... Nabi Adam

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Thursday, April 23, 2009

before coming to work yesterday.

the kitchen macdonald's of lane one

left over food

my emc meal..i made my own.. see very nice..

my midnight snack is very nice..

midnight raining heavily.. at khatib central..

you see...

thats all i have done yesterday....

today, i wake up in the morning then bath then went to school. today i dont know why i suddenly talked.. wahh!!! i nothappy that i talked sey.. then during cpalesson, i kept staring at hisham.. i dont know why all over the sudden?? i thinked because i never talked to him so long i rather feeling like i missing him already. but i dont rather much la.. then suddenly during science lesson, hisham and i talked.. wah!!! i need to see the doctor soon.. i am having a problem.... too much boys in one morning!!!

after school, i talked to ohisham for a while then go out of school with aidil then i gohome. i was supposed to wait for someone at northpoint but i dont know why i never wait.. very lazy lawl i just want to go home and relax... i need to calm down i am in a problem....

now i just play games in computer.. long time never play... then i go work... 6pm...

at least today work can have fun lawl.... good news...

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wah... raining when going yesterday from work at 12.30mid.... you just see the pistures!!!

i made my own emc meal. you see my snack wrap how nice.. lol

b4 opening it...

the left over food

the kitchen lane one

before going to punch in..

yesterday i had fun at work since that i have a new best friend... yay!! its mahad. he very nicefriend to me.. he like my big abang that cared about me

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Wednesday, April 22, 2009

today, i woke up at 7.45am in the morning. i had a nice nap anyway i cn remember lah... i woke up late coz cnt wake up. after that i went to bath then go eat breakfast then go interchange. then at interchange i wait for syafiqa to come. when she come, we walked together to school. on the way we walked to school, we saw aqilthen we walked to school together with him. when wew walked at the traffic light, hisham came.. walao! just want to spoil my mood in the moring !!! ee!!! i want to talked to syafiqa thats why we meet then hisham came and spoil everything sey....! then he keep talking to syafiqa then she want to talk to me but cant hisham is thre!!just spoil both of our mood.. stupid boy.. disturb me only he know..! like that better he go find stead lah!! soo close to syafiqa i tal; to her also he not happy!! not happy go home lah!! idiot !!! just ask syafiqa for stead easier!!

make me soo angry nw also im angry!!! sial lah!!!!

during lesson, i talked a little but i supposed to be quiet but i dont know why suddenly i talk!! alamak!!!

after school, went to northpoint with aide then go makan at food court slowly!!! and for ur infowe eat TOOOO SLOW!!! LoL then after makan go chongpang to talk aide new hp.. the phone is W359... very nice! new phone that just come out one...

then also i buy new perfume over there another brand somemore. i used to use adidas but now i use two perfume!! some people have different feeling so different perfume like me... picture is at the top of this blog..

ohya.. i forget!! the picture that have my face was yesterday taken from fiq. he made me smile then his friend go take my photo then put in msn... LoL!! he no other thing to do then puting my photo in msn!!! he arh!!

at 5pm, im geting ready to go to work.. 6pm punch in!!! get ready now or never!!;)

bye

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Tuesday, April 21, 2009

yesterday, theres one story that happen lah but very secret only a little that i can tell. i got my first relationship ring. im very happy to have that and what ever happen is that that ring will never get out of my side or else all my memories ofour relationship will begone. i will promise that our relationship is in my hands. if it is not on my handit must be somewhere near to me, without it our relationship will be over. thats all that i can say for now la... blah blah blah.....got some more butits very super personal... cant tell..

okay... back to today...

toda, i woke up at 6.30amin the morning to bath and to get ready to get to school but in the morning, it was raining very heavily that it made me late for me to go to school since mybrother wake very late at 7am.. walao!! in the morning just want to make me scold him only say..!walao arh!!!!! cant tahan!!! ahhh!!!!

in school, as per normal happen.. day-ja-boo!

after school, stay in class do nothing then after that went home then after that watch tv at bome then play com then watch tv again..

im done for today want to go sleep right now....

nightx!!=)

sorry never takephoto today.. no mood...

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Monday, April 20, 2009

wah..never edit photos before today will be the first day since i want to put all my history in my blog my birthday... ^^

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today, nohing special.wake up in the morning at 6.30am and gone to schoo. so difficult wake up since that i have nt enoughsleep because of yesterday's work. went home at about 1am with farhan. oh tired leh. then blah blah blah......

then during lesson nothing special happen. after school went jalan jalan with aide at northpoint to buy food for kakak mirah then go homethen makan then play com.

after playing computer, i and my kakak going out to buy my new pencil case my old one dont know what happen since it is now counted as lost then after that go home and watched tv.

just a normal teen average life of a normal day.....

nothing else to do for just a teen do nothing at home...

after play com went to amk hub to buy pencil case which oni cost $10000000! this is not a joke ! go to the shop and see! now it is offering for just $3.90! haha! pie say

then i went to the food court and eat pork then go home..not lying i really eatpork with my kakak.. taste very nice... 100%

thats all that i done then go home play comthengo to sleep. nap nap time!!!=)

but..
im not like them...
to me...
im not like them..
i have a job.
a job tha leads me to sucess by all my managers and crew....
e.g.
-farhan
-fendi
-raj
-kali
-victor
-lynne
-etc

theres lotx of friendsthat can help me and lead me to success...
this is my life and this is my choice...

and for my class...
to me,,
they are playful but i ca give my trust for them...
i will try to make my class be a good and a outstanding class in the school ina very goodway..
even im the left one out..
i'll will try..

go 3/8 or i will call them as in camp (sec 3 and class)

Warriors

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Friday, April 17, 2009

today, i also experineced something very sad, very very sad..

i felt that for the whole week,idont have any friends in the class. i only think of only one person very important in my mind only ravin. whenever i think of him, i forget about the class. and for the class, i am no one in the class whenever i contribute, iwill never get anything good from the class. not even a friend that care. even hisham dont want to be close with me. not even a call from him any more..! no onein the class notice me. im a no personin class.no one want to be friends with me. if there is, he or she will liked to talk to me. from what i experinced, i miss hisham as a best friend and a good little brother of mine.

i dont want to contribute anymore in class no one will not want to be with me...! i dont care..! this is my decision..! i know what im doing in my life..!!

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today, i wake up late then i almost late to school but its still okayokay arh... during lesson very sian lawl.. i became very quiet dun know why arh? then during science lesson, ms koh said that we needto stay back after school for pet rocket second part walao! i thought that today no cca can go homeearly so that can sleep leh but cannot.. cartoon ar.. cher tell last minute i dun like arh... then during pet rocket no choice but need to go back with your old partner which is xiao yun walao much more sian than bein in class during lesson sey...!

today, i experince that ican be very sian all the time.. waste time sey like that arh..! after pet rocket i dun wan to clean the class so i just go home very lazy lah class some more very messy very lazy 100% sial...! then i go home right after pet rocket i was so tired since tht i have not enough sleep because i finished worksuper damp late since now hisham not working any more.. he just want make me stress sial!! ah!!! feel like want scream till i faint !!!!

go home,just watched tv, listen music and play com at the same time......
got my free time and peace.. ah...
then i go sleep. tomorrow ayah<< so called since that everyone calls him that name going to get married... need go shopping buy lotx of things alone in the morning. the marriage ceremony starts in the early afternoon.i oni go for a while then go to work..

ayah told melast minute that he is going get masrried so cant cancel schedule at work..

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Saturday, April 11, 2009

today,11april2009is my birthday. my 15th birthday. in the morning at 6am. i woke up and bath then ate mashed potato then went to school for participanting in the annual ytss girl guide inter unit competition 2009. i am not participanting but im haping out just for guides. after guides at 12 noon, yuying, joanna, justina and i wnt makan then we shop shop a while at northpoint then we went home at 2.30pm. when i reach home i clean the house then went to my laptop and play some games...

this year, its quite a boring birthday since that im not allowd to work because of birthday and no party... i dont wan a party because its just a waste of time for my mother since that she have to go for some imprtant event today so the bestest way is to cancel my birthday planning.. to me, this is na sad thing to do for a little girl like me.even my hero self cnt be happy becauseof no party. to me, this is life and this is what to do tomy own life....

but the good point of my birthday is that i bacome morepopular in the school since that i can enjoymy life inand out of school and home. in school, girl guides always like to be close with me sice that im soo popular andin class every onealways communicate with the umi'aidah haha... very funny. then in religious class im the most popular person and at workim always the notice one. when ever i came they always made me laugh and happy and sometimes with suprise.. lol..!!

this year, it really changed my life. new friends, more communication and fun days everyday...

this is what i say i enjoy my life as a teenager!!)

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Saturday, April 04, 2009

yesterday was my promotion test( girlguides ) and i did very well or i mean super well. its because im the only one in my batch in sec 3 who starts the fire and ms ruzi said well done. yay! and for the axemanship, ms wong said very good except i only made one mistake.. thats good news and for the gadgets they asked to tie 3 kinds of knots eg. square lashing, snake lashing and diagonal lashing and then i tiedall the one one more one to one pole knot which is quite tied. thats means i did total of 4 knots. wow! i did super wll.
and then the written paper. quite all the question i know how to ans. all because of haziq help me in class. yay! i felt super happy that i did well and from wad i heard from other people they said that i have the potential of geting the top 5 ranking. even myself yay!!!

for now, i just wait til the results come...

today,i woke up inthe morning because today there is a special event goingon and today all of my grandmothers familyside is coming so the house will be super pack. when at 5pm im going to leave my house to go to work i will be wearing home clothes. so for now just get ready to get goiing yay!..

hope i get the top 5 ranking position. my dream rank is Senoir Patrol Leader Sec 2....

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